The first year of being a mom felt like it kicked my ass (or bottom - if I'm talking around Coco). Here is the truth of it - I'm a pretty insecure person (I'm working on changing that) and being a mom magnified my insecurities. I constantly questioned how I was handling situations, absolutely certain that other moms were doing things better. Then something happened at the one year mark. I felt capable - really capable. I had survived the first year and much more importantly Coco survived!! This new found security has left me with time on my hands - time that was spent worrying (oh how I will do things differently the second time around). I miss my creative outlets and this blog is one of those outlets. I really love blogging. I love the story you capture. Sometimes life feels like it is slipping through my fingers - everything starts to move so fast. Chronicling my journey makes me feel like I can slow things down a bit. Once I have recorded a memory or experience it is there forever and I can always look back and remember when. Blogging my special moments makes the passing of them a little less bitter and a bit more sweet. So I'm getting back to it.
What do I see for this little blog? I really want to share my experiences with whoever has the desire to read about it. I want to share the things I love...family, being a mom, fashion, food, etc. I want to tell you my story - although it is a bit heavy in places, actually really heavy - but maybe it will help someone? Maybe sharing it will help me. I want to use this blog for what I first intended it for - my notebook of inspiration. Now that I am a few years into my 30's - actually four...4!!! years into my 30's (what?? crazy!!) I am starting to feel more comfortable in my own skin - I'm beginning to really know who I am - what I like - what I want to strive for...it's all becoming clear, FINALLY. Now I feel like I'm in a place where I can share - and I really want to.
Here we go, little notebook - I'm back.